So what did I do to celebrate this milestone? Laid in bed sick all day. Ugh! haha!
I've been feeling the little gremlin a little more often now. That's what I've decided to call it instead of Bean. Gremlin. Yesterday it was Blood-Sucking Gremlin. Today, it's back to just Gremlin. haha!
Rick and I aren't really having much luck agreeing on names at all. Well, mostly I suggest names then he makes fun of them in some capacity. haha! His reasons for shooting them down are really quite lame...but I'm in no rush yet to pick one. So on we'll go with our random game. :)
What else...hm....work sucks. Big time. Our company is dissolving and the partners are splitting into their own companies. It sucks. I'm stuck in the middle of a lot of it and I really do hate it. I feel like I was brought into an unfair situation and I'm very frustrated by the whole thing. I may not have a job at all in two months. That could suck, I suppose. Then again, at least I won't be in this environment anymore. The stress is certainly not helping how I feel every day.
I'm starting to get very anxious about the fetal echo. I know stressing or worrying about it will help no one or do any good, but I can't help it. What if there is something wrong? Even though they can fix it about 75% of the time now, what if we fall in that 25% category. The saddest thing is I'm still not feeling connected really at all. So the extremely ridiculously selfish part of me is worried I'm suffering and completely sick for absolutely no reason at all. The motherly side of me can't imagine having to watch a human being suffer and having to bury my child. Clearly I have mental issues.
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