Recap

So here is a recap of the past half of a week that has gone by:

-I worked quite a few hours this past week and got pretty angry with someone I work with for being a little bit hypocritical. Sometimes I think I know a little more than I should and I use that info a little more than I should. But in other ways, I think it's good that I know as much as I do so that I don't quit and murder someone on my way out the door. haha! I really do love my job and I'm so ecstatic that I have this job, so don't take it the wrong way there. But I think it's safe to say 99.9% of the working population has complaints about their job. (I left the .1% cause I know just to be an ass someone would say no. haha)

-Looking back at my weekend of work, I had a great weekend! I had 2 fantastic families to work with and I really think they appreciated what I did which means so much!

-Ryan and I had a pretty good weekend. Well, the parts that I did see him in. Then Sunday we were going to grill burgers and brauts but I didn't want either of those and we needed buns so I decided to run to the store quick. Ryan decided to go with me. I realized while I was there how tasty some cheddar Sun Chips sounded. So I grabbed a bag and he threw a bitch-fit about how expensive those were as compared to another bag of chips. Long story short, it was a stupid fight that made me very angry.

-I'm still working on being positive. It's a very hard, very slow process I think. Mostly I've been finding things in my life to be grateful for. And quite honestly, it's overwhelming how much I have to be grateful for. Unfortunately, finding the things I am grateful for show me the things I'm not grateful for and the things I could honestly be much happier without. A double-edged sword I tell you.

-Side note - the word sword remind me of the word dwarf which I was asked in 6th grade spelling bee and helped me be the 6th place winner. :) No, it wasn't first but I was against high schoolers!!

-I'm really not sure how I've been losing weight lately. I think it's the lack of eating I've been doing. But I certainly don't hate it. The bad thing is that when I am eating, I'm eating complete shit. Oreos and milk, for example, have been a pretty big staple in my daily consumption. Or the iced coffee and donut on my way to work. Horrible! But so damn tasty. Somehow though that scale keeps leaning toward my 120 mark and I certainly don't hate it. I've also decided I'm ok with 121. I don't need 120 and certainly don't need the 118 I was originally aiming for. I'm certainly not a fat girl and I'm learning to deal with the huge thighs and hips I was born with. It could be much worse!